Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Trust in God

This is probably one of my shortest works. But I still posted it because I was inspired by my friend. If you can't trust anyone, then trust God.


"Let us not put too much of our trust in man, for even the purest of hearts may be lead to the betrayal of a brother.
Let GOD be the keeper of our secrets. It is much better to entrust him with everything we have."

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

My Journey to the Undying Lands (Inspired by J.R.R. Tolkien)

"That night they heard no noises. But either in his dreams or out of them, he could not tell which, Frodo heard a sweet singing running in his mind: a song that seemed to come like a pale light behind a grey rain-curtain, and growing stronger to turn the veil all to glass and silver, until at last it was rolled back, and a far green country opened before him under a swift sunrise."

~ Fog on the Barrow-downs
LoTR, The Fellowship of the Ring, Chapter 8, Book I


A few months after I finished reading the Lord of the Rings Trilogy, I had a dream. It was almost the same as the vision that Frodo had.


I saw white gulls on the horizon. They were calling for something... they were calling for me.
As night fell, I watched a pale moon rise across the sea. When dawn came, I felt the strange urge to venture into the open waters. I did not know why I desired this, but I felt that something or someone was truly calling me. Maybe the white gulls were a sign. A sign... yes, that's it. A sign. I realized that I had to find what was calling me. And so I left the place I once called home.

Slowly, as I journeyed to a place I did not know where, I started to hear singing voices. But no sooner did I find myself caught in a dreadful storm. I knew I had to fight for my life. I had to survive. Then, as if by magic, the storm ceased. And as it ceased, I heard once more the singing voices that were now much clearer than before. There were no words to the song, just a melody. A melody that made my heart rise and fall with the waves of the vast ocean. I looked up, and the sun was almost rising. But the rays of the sun were not high enough to hide the incandescence of this one star. This star was as bright as our Morning star. That star guided me through my journey to a place I did not know.
A few hours have passed, and once more I heard the voices. They were getting clearer. As the singing got clearer and clearer, I witnessed the unfolding of the grey rain-curtain of this world. And as the veil was being rolled back, everything was turned to silver-glass. I saw white shores from a distance. Beyond that was a far green country under a swift sunrise. I knew then that that place was the one that was calling me. My journey has ended.

I find it a little strange that I dreamt about something like this. Maybe it's because I'm obsessed with the works of J.R.R. Tolkien. Or maybe my heart was desiring peace, and wanted to go to the Undying Lands. Who knows?

Saturday, November 1, 2008

In This Moment... This is the Time of My Life...

I posted these songs sang by David Archuleta and David Cook because i had a moment, and in that moment I had the time of my life. :D


IN THIS MOMENT

Mother, can you hear me?
For this first time I see
Born into eyes not by my own decision
Take me away from a life with no vision

Step down from the subway
Climb the staircase to the street
Spinning in circles and holding on tight to
This moment forever if only tonight

[Chorus]
And I wanna be in this moment
No one can take it from me
And I wanna stay in this moment
No one can take it away from me

Driving through the city
For the first time you and me
Staring through windows at my own reflection
How can a window encompass perfection

Now that I know what it's like to be living
This beautiful world will never stop giving
I can't return to a life with no vision
Born into eyes not by my own decision

[Chorus]
And I wanna be in this moment
No one can take it from me
And I wanna stay in this moment
No one can take it awat from me

[Bridge]
Watching the world through the eyes of a child
Sitting alone in my room
Wishing that someone would take me away
Someday...
Give me a chance and I'll show what's real,
open your eyes and you'll see
That I'm stuck in the moment
And no one can take it from me

And I wanna be in this moment
No one can take it from me
And I wanna stay in this moment
No one can take it away
And I wanna be in this moment
No one can take it away from me

TIME OF MY LIFE

I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it until I let go
Gave into love
And watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
The time of my life

And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
Keeping my feet on the ground
Arms open wide,
Face to the sun

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time,
This is the time of my life, my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd I
know this is the time,
This is the time of my life,
(Na na na na na, na na na na na)
This is the time of my life,
(Na na na na na)
The time of my life,
Time of my life.


Oct. 30 2008... that day was the time of my life. No one could take me away from that moment. It was on that day that I was announced as the champion of the declamation competition in our school. It was my first time to join a contest like that. My piece was "I demand death."
I know that I will never forget that experience!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

What About Now?



Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,


The first time I heard this song, I thought it was another one of those love songs that we usually hear. But I listened to it again, and again, and again, and then I understood. I realized that this song had a much deeper meaning to it.
It portrayed our current earth and the people living here. But I wanted to make sure that I was right, so I watched the video, and there I saw it. I saw in that video what was happening to the lives of so many people out there. Their poverty has reduced them to the bare necessities of life. They have nothing, while we're enjoying our lives, not paying attention to their situation. WE are selfish. We don't care about others, we only care about ourselves.
This song was written to open our ignorant eyes to the painful truth of the world. That's why we should all do something to help our world and the people inhabiting it, even if we do it in small ways.
But... yes, we always say that we're going to help, and yet, we always say that we're still waiting for the right time to do so. But open your eyes, people! We always look and wait for the right time, not knowing that each time is right only if we make things happen.
So when shall we start? hmm... What about.... NOW???

I am me... I am myself... I am I...

I'm not childish, so stop thinking and saying that I am...

I'm not an idiot, so stop treating me like one...

I'm not naive, so don't consider me an ignorant girl...

I'm not weak, so never underestimate me...

I am faithful, please... don't destroy it by breaking me...

I am hopeful, so please... stop.. you always get my hopes up, but you always let them fall...

I am a musician, I used to play songs that give hope to doubtful people. But now, my songs are sad, which makes the listeners sad aswell.

I am a child of God, so start treating me like your sibling, for we are all children of God.

I am a lover. I cherish all those whom I love... but I don't think they love me back...

I am a loner at times... but only a few have approached me and asked me "Are you okay?"...

I am a friend... I care... I understand.. I listen...


I am me... I am myself... I am I...


what's my purpose?


nai elyë hiruva...


Maybe I shall find it...

Saturday, October 18, 2008

I Demand Death...



My hands are wet with blood. They are crimsoned with the blood of the man I have just killed.

I have come here today to confess. I have committed murder, deliberate, premeditated murder. I have killed a man in cold blood. That man is my master.

I am here not to ask for pity but for justice, simple, elementary justice. I am a tenant. My father was a tenant before me and so was his father before him. This misery is my inheritance and perhaps this will be my legacy to my children.

I have labored on a patch of land not mine. But I have learned to love that land, for it is the only thing that lies between me and complete destitution.

It is the only world that I have learned to cherish. And somewhere on that land I managed to build what is now the dilapidated nipa shack that has been home to me.

I have but a few worldly possession, mostly rags. My debts are heavy. They are the sum total of my ignorance and the inspired arithmetic of my master, which I do not understand.

I labor like a slave and out of the fruits of that labor, I get but a mere pittance of a share. And I have to stretch that mere pittance to keep myself and my family alive.

My poverty has reduced me to the bare necessities of life. And the constant fear of ejection from the land has made me totally subservient to my master. You tell me that under the constitution, I am a free man --- free to do what I believe is just, free to say what I think is right, and free to worship God according to the dictate of my conscience. But I do not understand the meaning of all this for I have never known freedom. I have always obeyed the wishes of my master out of fear. I have always regarded myself as no better than a slave to the man who owns the land on which I live. You tell me of the right to life and liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. But I have known no rights, only obligations. I have known no happiness, only despair in the encumbered existence which has always been my lot.

My dear friends, I am a peace-loving citizen. I have nothing but love for my fellowmen. But why did I kill this man? It is because he is a symbol of an economic system which has made him and me what we are. He, a master, and I, a slave.

Out of the deliberate design I killed him because I could no longer stand this life of constant fear and want. I could no longer suffer the thought of being perpetually a slave.

I committed murder as an abject lesson. I want to blow that spelled the death of my master to be a death blow to the institution of economic slavery which shamelessly exists in the bright sunlight of freedom that is guaranteed by the constitution to every man.

My dear friends, I do not ask you to forgive me nor to mitigate my crime. I have taken the law into my own hands, and I must pay for it in atonement.

But kill this system. Kill this system and you will kill despotism. Kill this system and you kill slavery. Kill this despotism and you set the human soul to liberty and freedom. Kill this slavery and you release the human spirit into happiness and contentment. For the cause of human liberty, of human happiness and contentment, thousands and even millions have died and will continue to die. Mine is only one life. Take it if you must but let it be a sacrifice to the cause for which countless others have been given and will be given again and again, until the oppressive economic system has completely perish, until the sons of toil have been liberated from enslavement, and until man has been fully restored to decency and self-respect.

In pursuance of the same retribution of justice, to an economic system that has brought an insistent but bootless cry of anguish from the weak and helpless, and has laid upon the back of the ignorant labor burdens that are too heavy to be borne, I demand death!

To this callous system of exploitation that has tightened the fetters of perpetual bondage on the hands of thousands, and has killed the spirit of freedom in the hearts of men, I demand death!

To this oppression that has denied liberty to the free and unabounded children of God, I demand death!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Ocean mist



The World is like a vast Ocean...

If you didn't count the fishes as part of the ocean's environment, I would consider us as the FOGS and the MISTS that covers the Ocean.
Why do I say this? Well, it's like this. The fog is thick, while the mist is thin. The BIG PEOPLE are the the FOGS, and we, the ordinary people are the MISTS....

The Ocean is filled with fogs...
I seem to be an invisible mist among them.
They treat me like evaporated water.
They say that they are the ones that can change our beautiful Ocean, and make it even more beautiful.
They say that we, the mists, aren't capable of anything and that we should just leave our Ocean to THEM...
but...
What if the beauty of our Ocean gets destroyed because of them?
What if we were actually the ones that could change our Ocean and make it a more beautiful place?
"Let us not be downcast by the words of those arrogant fogs!" I say to my fellow mists.
"She is right! We should not let them rule our beautiful world just because they are thicker than us!" said another in reply to my words.
And that is when it all started. The mists stood up for their rights. They did not let the fogs do what they desired.
After much quarrel between the two groups, it was decided that the mists were right.
And so, the fogs and the mists worked together to turn their beautiful Ocean even more beautiful.


Now, does this actually happen in real life?

If only all of us would be at peace with one another, maybe our world would be a much better place right now.

GOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE

When you have a problem, who do you go to first?
Your parents?
Your friends?
Your self?
What about God? HE cares too!

When you achieve something, what's the first thing that comes into your mind?
That you were great, and that it was all YOU?
But what about God? HE guided YOU so that you could achieve your goal!!

When you pray, you usually ask for your necessities in life....
When you got the things you needed...
Did you even thank HIM?

Remember....GOD is always there for us, though not in presence of body, but in presence of spirit...
GOD will always help us get through the stickiest situation.....
GOD loved us, HE still loves us, and HE will keep on loving us...
.So let us not forget to thank him for the wonderful things HE has done for us...

GOD will always love you, even when everyone in this world leaves...