What About Now?

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,


The first time I heard this song, I thought it was another one of those love songs that we usually hear. But I listened to it again, and again, and again, and then I understood. I realized that this song had a much deeper meaning to it.
It portrayed our current earth and the people living here. But I wanted to make sure that I was right, so I watched the video, and there I saw it. I saw in that video what was happening to the lives of so many people out there. Their poverty has reduced them to the bare necessities of life. They have nothing, while we're enjoying our lives, not paying attention to their situation. WE are selfish. We don't care about others, we only care about ourselves.
This song was written to open our ignorant eyes to the painful truth of the world. That's why we should all do something to help our world and the people inhabiting it, even if we do it in small ways.
But... yes, we always say that we're going to help, and yet, we always say that we're still waiting for the right time to do so. But open your eyes, people! We always look and wait for the right time, not knowing that each time is right only if we make things happen.
So when shall we start? hmm... What about.... NOW???

I am me... I am myself... I am I...

I'm not childish, so stop thinking and saying that I am...

I'm not an idiot, so stop treating me like one...

I'm not naive, so don't consider me an ignorant girl...

I'm not weak, so never underestimate me...

I am faithful, please... don't destroy it by breaking me...

I am hopeful, so please... stop.. you always get my hopes up, but you always let them fall...

I am a musician, I used to play songs that give hope to doubtful people. But now, my songs are sad, which makes the listeners sad aswell.

I am a child of God, so start treating me like your sibling, for we are all children of God.

I am a lover. I cherish all those whom I love... but I don't think they love me back...

I am a loner at times... but only a few have approached me and asked me "Are you okay?"...

I am a friend... I care... I understand.. I listen...


I am me... I am myself... I am I...


what's my purpose?


nai elyë hiruva...


Maybe I shall find it...

I Demand Death...

My hands are wet with blood. They are crimsoned with the blood of the man I have just killed.

I have come here today to confess. I have committed murder, deliberate, premeditated murder. I have killed a man in cold blood. That man is my master.

I am here not to ask for pity but for justice, simple, elementary justice. I am a tenant. My father was a tenant before me and so was his father before him. This misery is my inheritance and perhaps this will be my legacy to my children.

I have labored on a patch of land not mine. But I have learned to love that land, for it is the only thing that lies between me and complete destitution.

It is the only world that I have learned to cherish. And somewhere on that land I managed to build what is now the dilapidated nipa shack that has been home to me.

I have but a few worldly possession, mostly rags. My debts are heavy. They are the sum total of my ignorance and the inspired arithmetic of my master, which I do not understand.

I labor like a slave and out of the fruits of that labor, I get but a mere pittance of a share. And I have to stretch that mere pittance to keep myself and my family alive.

My poverty has reduced me to the bare necessities of life. And the constant fear of ejection from the land has made me totally subservient to my master. You tell me that under the constitution, I am a free man --- free to do what I believe is just, free to say what I think is right, and free to worship God according to the dictate of my conscience. But I do not understand the meaning of all this for I have never known freedom. I have always obeyed the wishes of my master out of fear. I have always regarded myself as no better than a slave to the man who owns the land on which I live. You tell me of the right to life and liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. But I have known no rights, only obligations. I have known no happiness, only despair in the encumbered existence which has always been my lot.

My dear friends, I am a peace-loving citizen. I have nothing but love for my fellowmen. But why did I kill this man? It is because he is a symbol of an economic system which has made him and me what we are. He, a master, and I, a slave.

Out of the deliberate design I killed him because I could no longer stand this life of constant fear and want. I could no longer suffer the thought of being perpetually a slave.

I committed murder as an abject lesson. I want to blow that spelled the death of my master to be a death blow to the institution of economic slavery which shamelessly exists in the bright sunlight of freedom that is guaranteed by the constitution to every man.

My dear friends, I do not ask you to forgive me nor to mitigate my crime. I have taken the law into my own hands, and I must pay for it in atonement.

But kill this system. Kill this system and you will kill despotism. Kill this system and you kill slavery. Kill this despotism and you set the human soul to liberty and freedom. Kill this slavery and you release the human spirit into happiness and contentment. For the cause of human liberty, of human happiness and contentment, thousands and even millions have died and will continue to die. Mine is only one life. Take it if you must but let it be a sacrifice to the cause for which countless others have been given and will be given again and again, until the oppressive economic system has completely perish, until the sons of toil have been liberated from enslavement, and until man has been fully restored to decency and self-respect.

In pursuance of the same retribution of justice, to an economic system that has brought an insistent but bootless cry of anguish from the weak and helpless, and has laid upon the back of the ignorant labor burdens that are too heavy to be borne, I demand death!

To this callous system of exploitation that has tightened the fetters of perpetual bondage on the hands of thousands, and has killed the spirit of freedom in the hearts of men, I demand death!

To this oppression that has denied liberty to the free and unabounded children of God, I demand death!