Another Rhyme

I wrote this when My Angel and I had our WORST argument ever! It really, really made me sad. That's why I wrote this.
See? I really get inspired when I'm sad. But that doesn't mean I should always be sad to write my poems.

-For A Dying Soul; A Broken Heart-
I try to stop myself from crying,

But every day my soul is dying.
Why did I get my hopes too high?

Why do we have to say good bye?

Lihim na Paghangad

This is the first time I've tried to make a poem in my native language. Strange, huh? My favorite subject has always been English. I've never really been that fond of Filipino. But then I realized... I AM A FILIPINO. I should be proud of that. That's why, starting today, I'm going to read more Filipino prose and poetry to help me make better poems than the one you are about to read.

Kailan ko kaya mararamdaman

Na ako'y hindi lamang buto't laman?

Ang kaluluwa ko'y gustong lumipad,

At sa mga ibon ito'y maihantulad.

Mararanasan ko pa kaya ang kapayapaan
Na pinaghirapang makamit ng mga bayaning hinahangaan?
Dahil sa isipan ko'y ako pa rin
Ay nakakulong tulad ng isang salarin.

Kakayanin ko pa kaya ang sakit na ito
Na nadarama ng aking mahinang puso?
Tayo'y laging nakararanas ng paghihinagpis,
Ngunit ito'y ating dapat matiis.

Sa mga makababasa ng tulang ito,
Sana ay mahanap na ninyo
Ang tunay na hangad ng inyong mga damdamin
At kaligayahan na higit sa dagat na malalim.


Translation:

" When will I ever feel
That I'm not just bones and flesh (actually, 'laman' literally means 'organ')?
My soul wants to fly
And to the birds be compared.

Will I ever experience
The freedom that our heroes fought hard to gain?
Because in my mind I am still
Imprisoned like a criminal.

Can I still endure this pain
That my poor heart is feeling?
We always experience [can't think of the right word for 'hinagpis']
But this, we have to face.

To every one that will be able to read this poem,
I hope that you will find
The true desire of your souls
And find happiness deeper than the ocean."

Just the Two of Us

I first saw you as a lonely traveler with the gentle gaze,
And you helped me get through that dreaded winding maze.
When we got out the rain did fall upon my already dampened cheek
That smelled of salty tears which from my eyes did leak.

You sheltered me from the storm and kept me from harm's way
As the cold wind did howl and the trees did sway.
You sang me a song, a nostalgic melody that resonated me softly,
And as I listened to your voice, I felt my world fill with serenity.

The rain had stopped, the clouds dropped, and the sunset gave a sign
That evening had almost come, a night that would be so benign.
We watched the sun setting and listened to the gentle breeze.
But my eyes were caught by your smile that made my heart freeze.

It was getting late and I knew that we had to part.
Meeting you made me fall and, from you, I could not depart.
I realized then that my heart was beating not to give me life,
But because it had found the one who it can die for from a knife.

We bid each other farewell and my forehead you did kiss.
Oh, that soft caress that kept me alive, I would truly miss.
I will never forget this day, the day that I met you.
But now we really must part, for the sky is showing it's indigo hue.

That night, I looked up at the ceiling, lying on my bed,
And thoughts of you suddenly came rushing through my head.
I remembered your sweet melody and I fell into a deep slumber,
And I dreamt that we would meet again and be together forever.

My dreams that were, oh, so sweet brought me to a place
Where our feelings would never disappear, and our lives filled with grace;
Just the two of us going beyond that distant ocean and sky
And with the birds, we soared high and passed the world by.

I woke too early without the sun in sight,
And it was still so dark, it almost felt like night.
Then my eyes became wide for I saw you standing there,
I thought I was dreaming, and at first, it gave me a scare.

You looked at me with your crystal gaze and all my doubts did fade.
You came closer to me and recited me a poem that you had made.
You told me through that poem that you had loved me from the beginning,
And with a kiss you sealed your words, and I could hear that my heart was singing.

Never Again

I'm not an EMO, OK? I just get inspired to write poems when I'm sad, that's all. I know this poem might make me seem like an EMO, but believe me, I'M NOT!

I can never again show my smile,
Even if I was traveling through the river Nile.
For they have taken away my dignity
And called me names clandestinely.

I can never again show what I can really be,
For they have only seen a monster in me.
Criticism, that I can still accept.
But they have gone beyond the depth.

They keep telling others that I am a liar
Like I was some sort of voyeur friar.
They say things about me without my consent.
With what they do, can they never be content?!

Never again can I see the trees
Differently from what the others sees.
Nor can I call myself a lover of life
If all of the world would only bring me strife.

Never again can I look upon a little bee
With the same perspective I have of the sea.
I can never again look at the stars and say,
"Tomorrow will be another day."

Never again can I embrace every hour
Like I would take care of my self-planted flower.
But never again will anyone see me cry,
For my heart is almost ready to die.


Well, I guess you can easily figure out what my problem is. Today, August 20, '09... let me just say... I HATE THIS DAY!!!

Constant and Inevitable

The night has come once more to fill our lives with serenity.
But my hours pass with a very deep uncertainty.
There is this one thought that comes to me every night.
It makes me lose the clarity of my sight.

Oh, beseech this damnable thought that has encumbered me!
What must I do so that, from my mind, it shall flee?!

Change-- my inevitable friend and foe.
Why do you haunt me with thoughts that make me woe?
Is it not enough to take over my life?
You are just too sharp! Sharper than a knife!

You are sometimes as warm as the North Wind's back,
Which has the peace that our world still lack.
But there are times that you are as cold as it's outer breeze,
Which makes everyone feel ill at ease.

You are as constant as the stars,
And can destroy a prison's iron bars.
You will always be with eternity,
And will flow beyond infinity.

A Memory Almost Forgotten

I was studying for the upcoming exam. It was August 2, '09, Sunday, about 10:30PM. I think I was studying for my Social Studies subject. I was deep in my studies when I remembered something from the past. Read further to find out what it is.



It was back in 2001. My grandmother died because of Colon Cancer...

During the first days of her death ceremony, I don't know why, but I just wasn't sad. But on the before her burial, I suddenly realized that she was out of my life forever, and that I was never going to see her loving face, hear her tender voice and feel her caring touch again. I cried so hard that night.
The next day, we went to the church for her burial rites. It was my second time to be in a catholic church. The first time was when I was a flower girl at my aunt's wedding.
I can still remember approaching Lola Tessie's (her real name was Teresita) coffin and placing a hand-made card on top of the glass that covered her pale dead body. I always thought that she would be able to read it once she reaches heaven. I'm still hoping for that...
Watching her coffin being buried was one of the saddest days of my life.


I miss grandma so much. I'm "wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you were somehow near..."
I don't know what made me remember her on that night. But I'm glad I did. I'd almost forgotten that time.

Liaison

For My Angel

Together, every moment that we spend,
Brings my heart closer to it's mend.
I've realized that you're more important to me,
Than the great ocean is to the wide open sea.

The liaison that the two of us have formed,
Has fixed everything that evil has stormed.
And though the rain still falls and the ground shall shake,
My love for you will never break.

And although our love is clandestine,
It shall be as strong as it has always been.
I know that we share this feeling mutually,
And that we will never destroy each others dignity.