What Must I do?

What Must I Do?
Poem by: Isabelle Natasha D. Torres
~This poem is for you HeartKeeper


Would you be happy if I was dead?
Because I always see you sad while I still live.
So many thoughts are running through my head.
Now I'm hesitating what sacrifice I should give.

Is there a way for me
So that the light of happiness you will see?
And not leave you wandering sad and alone
Like a star in the deep, dark unknown.

My happiness depends on you,
For you have been the only one that was true.
But if I can't give you the equal amount,
It might be best for me to start my life's "count."

What must I do
If simple things I couldn't give to you?
I couldn't even heal your broken heart
When it was struck by a large damn dart.

Tell me now,
Tell me soon,
Tell me quick,
What must I do?


My Dearest HeartKeeper,

I wrote this poem just after we had our little argument about "you-know-what." I know I haven't been able to give you the happiness that you needed, and I'm sorry for that. Every day, I can see you happy when you're with your friends. That made me think "Does he really need me?" Ever since then, I've been haunted by that very thought every single moment since I fell in love with you.
I can see you dying inside each time you see me happy with other people, and I've been dying for the same reason. Why can't we just find a way to give each other joy to last a lifetime? I live now only for you and for God. I always pray to Our Almighty Creator that he give me the strength and courage to show you that you are not alone in this world. But I still don't have that strength. I still haven't gained that courage. I know God has heard my prayer. Maybe this isn't the time that He has chosen for me to gain what I have asked for. I'll be patient, and you should be patient too.

I love you, my dear. I love you so much.

Yours forever,
oceanmist

POST UPDATE! (April 3, 2010)

I am SOOOOOO NOT HIS ANYMORE! Especially not "FOREVER"! Ew!