Friday, February 27, 2009

I Can't Lose You

Here's another one of my strange dreams. It felt real at first, but as the dream progressed, I started to feel that I was really in a dream. I admit that I cried when I woke up. I love HeartKeeper.


I was in my school just strolling around, looking for HeartKeeper. It was a special day for us, and we were supposed to go out together, but unfortunately, I couldn't find him. So I just kept on walking and walking around, eyeing every person I saw, looking in every direction possible, but still no sign of HeartKeeper. I was actually starting to get desperate. I lost control of myself and suddenly burst into tears, then I remembered that there was a program. I wiped my tears so none of my classmates would see me crying and decided to watch the program. It was a program related to sports.

Okay, so when I reached the small stairs near the high school faculty room I was shocked, like REALLY shocked! Why? Because when I was halfway down the stairs, some parts of quadrangle was water[!], bodies of water to be precise. If you looked at it from the 5th floor, it would look like an archipelago! And what made it weirder was the fact that there were professional swimmers in the water. "Oh-my-gosh." I said. The swimmers there even invited me to go into the water and swim with them, but I refused. Unfortunately for me, the swimmers were very persuasive. I had no choice. I went in the water for a little swim. Hey, wait! Remember the ring I mentioned on my other blog post, My Heart Will Always Be With You? Well, in this dream, it almost got LOST while I was swimming. Good thing this other swimmer (who was really going FAST!) caught my ring before it got lost into the deep abyss of the waters.

I was getting hungry. I looked at my watch and it was lunch time. Time to eat! But of course, HeartKeeper never left my mind while I was walking to my father's office (that's where I eat my lunch). When I entered my father's office, there was an eerie feeling in the air. It was silent. No one was in the secondary room of the office. That gave me a strange feeling. As I was approaching the primary room of the office, my heart started to beat faster and faster as if something bad was going to happen. When I opened the door, I was in a different place, I mean, the office seemed so different. I kissed the ring that HeartKeeper gave me. There were strange- and unfamiliar-looking people inside the office. I thought I could go off unnoticed, but I was wrong. Just as I was reaching out for my spoon and fork, the strange-looking people gave me a scary glare. Then one of the people I knew there approached me and told me that the people there were CRAZY (literally). When he told me that, I suddenly noticed that the people that gave me a scary glare were tied to their seats. "Oh... my... gosh..." I thought. I had to get away! I had to find someplace where I could feel safe! But... oh, no! Something was stopping me! This unknown force was trying to keep me from going outside. With the blink of an eye, my dad and the other people I knew were GONE[!], and the people strapped to their seats were loose! They were chasing me! I ran and ran but the door seemed so far away. Yes! I reached the door. "I'm out!" I shouted. But no. I wasn't out yet. I was in another place. There, I saw HeartKeeper and a few other people. I felt safe when I saw him, but after a while, the feeling of anxiety dominated me again! I turned around and the crazy people were there!! This time, they weren't only chasing me, but they were also chasing the other people with me, including HeartKeeper! After minutes of hiding, running, and chasing, the crazy people decided to burn the place. I was suffocating worse than the others (I have asthma). HeartKeeper was becoming weaker and weaker by the second. While I was helping him get out of the fire, I was crying. "I love you" I told him, but he was too weak to respond.

The smoke was getting thicker. I could barely see anything! Then... we got out! Finally! But just then, I heard the screams of my friends that were still in the flames. I made HeartKeeper sit down and tried to get the others out, but I was TOO late. Out of the 14 people there (including HeartKeeper and I), only 5 of us (HeartKeeper, me, and 3 others) got out in time. The others, well, they... DIED!

I felt so worthless! I couldn't even save the others. Just then, I remembered HeartKeeper. I was aimlessly looking for him AGAIN! But I found him. I hugged him tightly and kissed him, but he pushed me back and walked away as if trying to tell me that it was over between the two of us. After that, well, I woke up!


Okay, so now I guess you know why I cried when I woke up. And if any of you noticed, my dream isn't about Alpha_AC anymore. Yeepee!


My love, my HeartKeeper,

I hope we settle our differences soon. I can't live a day without you and your smile. I'm sorry for everything, and thank you also.
HeartKeeper... promise me... promise that you'll never leave. Promise me that you will always be there for me and only me, and I'll do the same.
The oaths I made will never be broken. I hope yours will never be broken too. But the oaths we made together will remain eternal promises of love. Love that will never be shattered as long as we are true to each other. Though hindrances may come, though times of arguments and misunderstandings may bother our days, our love will be as everlasting as an ocean of immortality that will constantly provide every creature with life that never ends, or as constant as the Northern Star, Polaris, that helps every being in this world find their way when they are lost under the utter darkness of the night sky.
To these words I will remain true. I hope you do too.

Le melon, meleth nin. Linnon am meleth vin. Le melon.

~oceanmist~






POST UPDATE! (April 3, 2010)

I still can't believe I was so obsessed! Damn!

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